So I was kind of reading some of the other topics about what some people think about me leaving and stuff. And I have to say, some of it really, really hurt. There's been many, many takes on what happened, and I would really like to tell my own.
I honestly, was caught in the middle. And as I'm sure you know, the middle is a very, very hard place to be, and I really regret having to be there now. I agreed with some of the things the admins were saying, and some of what the 'rebels' lets call them, were saying. Yes, I'll admit I took part in the boycott. I'm not proud of it, but I did. At the time, it seemed like a good idea, but then we we returned, we saw the extent of the damage. And it was tearing the forum we loved so much apart. And that's where I snapped.
Wkw, I know you spoke of trying to be recruited, and I can honestly say, that I knew nothing of that, and I'm really really sorry. I never lied to you, and I'm sorry if other people did.
Jah, I know you were attacked after you posted about the boycott. That's unfair. I'm really sorry you had to deal with that jazz.
All the Admins and AD especially, you guys got a LOT of jazz you didn't deserve. So on behalf of all those people, I apologize, as well as apologize for the things that I may have said to you.
So anyways. Now you sort of know my angle I guess. But I'm not done.
I love MC. It's honestly like another home for me. And last night, I really didn't think over my decision of leaving as much as I know realize I should have. I know this sounds like, stupid or whatever, but even the smallest bad decision, like leaving MC, can kinda put a damper on your day. I also feel like I just left without trying to help pick up the pieces. So that's why I've decided to stay after all.
But you know, at the time, I really didn't feel welcome here. It used to be such a fun and happy place. Even though I didn't really cause any of the drama to start with, I most certainly contributed to it. Therefore, it's felt sort of tense. Like I'm not welcome? Which is ridiculous, because I know I am, and I hope I STILL am. Even after all this.
So even if we have to have a freakin' symbolic talking circle, I'm going to make SURE we get rid of all this drama, because we're a family, and we have to stick together no matter what.
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Edit: Alright, after actually reading that again, it kinda sounds like I was blaming everything on the other boycotters, and I didn't mean that. I was 100% apart of most of it. I'm not denying that at all. I'm sorry to those of you I pinned all this on.
This post has been edited by winxclubrox23: Mar 29 2010, 11:03 PM
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