(a little late... sorry ^^)I agree with Boo on two things: Telling Megan how you feel, and trying to get closer with your other friends who see you as 'back-up'. If you don't appreciate her bragging, tell her. Tell her that you do value her friendship (that right?), but you're worried about her/your depression. She shouldn't be making you depressed, as a friend. Sometimes people just do that for attention; but if something's wrong with her, as a friend you should try to help. And as far as the needing attention thing goes for her, I think you should tell her that you are her friend (right?) and you're there for her. Try to support her, and maybe the depression will go away. If you tell her that her sadness spreads to you, don't say that you want to leave her because of that, as a friend you might support her, that is, if you still want to be friends with her. Your friendship is special; those who you give it to should value it, and you should value others'. So for the singing thing, I actually know exactly what you mean. Unfortunately, I'm not quite sure how to handle it in my world. But for your situation which is a little different, I think you should take voice lessons or something, and maybe, if you want to, ask Megan to go with you, then it can be something you share, as well as not look like you're trying to steal her dream (which I know you're not). Or, you can explain to her that you've wanted to be a singer too, but you care about her thus you don't want to steal her dream. Maybe, singing can became something you share together, and maybe you could build your friendship that way. So for the other friends, using you as backup isn't exactly the best thing a friend can do. So Maybe getting closer to them is one option, but is there anyone else who can be your friend? Maybe try going for that, too. If not, the refer to option 1 (^^). Hope I helped, really. Good luck ♥
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