I am Feeling as If I am Nothing I need Help Please, I just...just can't stop crying anymore... Options

[Princess-Mariah]

Heya to start let me explain of what people see of me and what I see of me...
What they see of me:
I am the weird loner girl who has a weird monroe beauty mark on the left side of her face. I wear emo lookin clothes and ussually wear my hair up. I "like every boy that is nice to me" I cry to much. I dont talk and I am not popular and Im a choir querue

What I see of me:
I am caring and shy until I get to know that person. Around boys I get nervous. I am a music lover so I join choir. I think my monroe beauty mark and my emo looking clothes make me unique. I only like a few guys. I want to be popular but it is hard to. I wear my hair up but soon might get a emo hairstyle.

but my problem is, I have all of these friends who have boyfriends and.... I dont have one. I am scared to speak up because whenever I ask a guy out he says no. I am starting to get closer to the popular girls but not at all with the boys what do I do?!