everyone tells me not to bottle your anger up as it can be dangerous when all is released
ITS TRUE i have a bad habit of bottling my emotions up and eventually it gets to much and comes out in one massive explosion, one word, one little action can set me off, and its generally someone i have no right to be angry at, but sometimes the anger is directed at the right person for i will always stand up for my friends protect my sisters, and hold on to the feeling that no one will ever get the best of me. THIS ISN'T ALWAYS TRUE THOUGH one day someone might think their doing the right thing and say the wrong thing and set me of and although i swore i'd never get angry at them i blow my top yell at them for fifteen solid minutes then refuse to talk to them the rest of the day then i spend the night crying cos i've let my selfishness screw everything up and in the end i will lose the one i love cos i'm too selfish to let people see my feelings until its too late.
The way it used to be I think of how you used to tease me The way we used to fight Always about being a centimeter taller then each other I remember how we’d spend our classes Laughing and disrupting the rest of the class I remember the day that boy in English Made you cry and no one stood by you No one but me I miss our friendships so true I try to work out Where it went so horribly wrong How it came to this Why did this have to fall apart? I always believed in you Thought of you As though we were family Can’t things just go back? To the way they used to be When it was just you and me Two girls so similar But still so different Fighting to be happy in this Big world.
Hate you Don’t you know? That I hate you And everything about you I can’t stand to be Near you I don’t want to hear you Since you screwed my life up And turn everything around And upside down I realized just how much I Hate you I really really hate you
Pain I can’t escape it I can’t explain it It just keeps coming back to me When I walk When I talk When I sleep When I sit There is always the pain of your memory Burning through the back of my mind So I kick a wall or two Just to try and escape The memory of you Even though I can feel The physical pain of a fracture or two Your memory still burns through my mind I wake in the middle of the night Just crying cos the thought of you Still causes me so my grief Oh all this pain I can’t escape it Oh I can’t explain it Please cant you just End all this pain Escape I want to Escape I need to escape please help me to get away from this pain I need to escape I want to escape cant you see I want to be free emptiness and pain I don’t want the I want to be happy no longer lonely I want to escape I need to escape please cant you help ME I need help I need help to save me from this pain I need help to escape my nightmare I need to get away escape the darkness find the light I need help to get through the day the night the rest of my life please wont you hear my plea I need help to be free Gothic Angel Surrounded by darkness and pain An angel tries to pull through Pushing closer towards the light But this gothic angel can break through The darkness grows pulling at her wings Dragging her back towards the night. Sometimes she prays That a stroke of light Might find its way through But even when she waits Day by day The darkness pulls All her hope Away This gothic angel Needs to find her way back Away from the darkness Away from the pain Back into the time Where nothing could Break her the way You did by sending the darkness Her way Why try, when eventualy its just a waste of time Why smile When you know its just a lie Why pretend when nothings realy perfect in the end why should i try to find my true self when she isnt the person anyone actualy wants why dose everyone want the lie that i used to call me Thank you Before we met I used to cry all night long But since we’ve met no tears Have fallen from these eyes So this is why I say Thank you for the smile Which you brought to my face Thank you for the joy Which you brought to my heart Thank you for the laugher You cause with all your funny jokes Thankyou for being there Through the hard times Thankyou for just letting me be me Before I met you I used to cry all night long But since I’ve met you No tears have fallen from these eyes So this is why I say Thank you for being my friend ^_^ More then friends You and I We’ve been together Through the hard times And the good times We’ve held each other as we’ve cried We’ve laughed till we could not laugh no more We may fight and say that our friendship is over But when we think about it we realise that we need each other That is why we are more then just friends We are family, sisters Who are always there with a shoulder to cry on And a hand to lend Friendship is Friendship is being there, No mater the distance Friendship is showing you care No mater what happens Friendship is standing by each other No mater how much you fight Friendship is the special bond between you and me That will never break for that is a true friendship. Mended by friendship This heart has broken Many a times This girl cannot trust She cannot feel But then she met you And she found out How to trust again How to feel friendship This heart has been mended By the friendship that you show This girl can now trust She can now feel She now understands That what she needed all along Was a friend . Feelings I sit here staring into your eyes To afraid to show how I truly feel Scared of how you might react And when you turn and walk away I almost cry For I know you will never be mine Because of these feelings I hide copyright Falicia Brown 2007
i've fallen into this pit again wont you please take my hand pull me up out of the darkness raise my spirits make me see that no mater how hurt i am you will be there to make me feel whole again
darn this morning when i woke up my radio wasnt working and i was possitive i switched it on last night anywho when i came out into the lounge i asked my dad did we have a blackout and he said it was the same problem we had last time we had lots of rain half the house lost powerand dad rang the reasl estate and they sent out the electrition and now we're only going to have power in half the house untill next week when the rain stops cos they have to pull the parts of the roof off which means no t.v no radio (not even the laptop while cleaning my room ^_^) oh well i guess i can get by
My heart is breaking i'm sick of waiting holding on knowing its wrong wishing you'd be here makeing it so clear that its with you i belong whom i've waited for for so long its you that i long for the only one i adore just dont leave it too late cause i just can't wait Anymore Copyright, Falicia Brown may 08
today i have to say goodbye to gexie as shes going away for about a year i know i have to let her go but shes been one of my bestest friends for over five years and i'm realy going to miss her lots cos over the past three years we havent been able to spend as much time together i know i've been away from her before but that was for about three months and even then it made me sad, but i guess it isnt realy goodbye just till we meet again, maybe dee might even take me to visit her why is goodbye always the hardest thing to say whats with this sadness flowing through me so deep down inside when i know you will always still be there even though i cant see you but i know everything will be alright cos its not truely goodbye its only till we meet again forever i will wait for that day and i will not let no tears fall from these eyes till that day i will be strong and stand tall for we will meet again
inside my head is a box a box full of emotions waiting to burst free feelings of love and hate fellings of happiness and saddness inside my head is a box a box that contains it all would you like to have a look (i know its not as good as any of my other poems)
I've got to escape I need to get outta this place i have to break free spredd my wings and let my spirit sore i've got to escape & get outta this place |
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